Both of my parents called me this week within days of one another in the wake of the mass murder at Virginia Tech. I don’t know why, but I really didn’t think much about the whole thing. Yes, I sympathize with the families of the dead (even the murderer’s family, though I hope the little punk is burning in hell as I write,) but I haven’t thought much about the incident. Should I be thinking more about this? It could happen at my school just as easily as it could happen at any college if some cracked kid with an affinity for guns went off his nut, but the whole situation is pretty rare in spite of the media frenzy that happens every time some dumb fuck shoots up a school. My school had a vigil the night of the shooting, which I of course did not attend (too much homework, gaming and dumb self-pity.) Sometimes I wonder if I’m really weird for not being fazed by this sort of thing.
Why has this thing moved from the high schools to the colleges? A rather unsavory former aquaintance of mine predicted years ago that school shootings would start happening at community colleges, but it appears that the universities are just as susceptible. I thought he was an idiot, personally. It seemed natural that a few weirdos who were stuck in the modern prison of a public school and who weren’t quite old (or mature) enough to understand the difference between Doom and reality might crack, but now it’s happening among people who in theory should have a slightly different outlook.
Sometimes I wonder if the modern American perpetuation of adolescence (of which I am guilty as well) leads to a skewed worldview where this sort of irresponsible outlook doesn’t go away as soon as it should. Thank God most of us who are in perpetual adolescence aren’t violent gun nuts.